balance

As my last post sort of touched on, one of the things on my mind recently has been moving to be closer to work. It's the suggestion-of-the-month, if you will, for a way in which to make it feel like there was more time in the day.  Don't get me wrong, I love my life - I love our house, I really love Fairfield and what an adorable town it is, I am enjoying being back at work and figuring out the whole working-mom thing, and of course, my hubby, baby girl and fam, are the best! I am lucky to work with my hubby, so we see each other all day long :) Some might think that's crazy, but for us, it's great. It's all we know, and we love it! My baby on the other hand, I miss her, every second of every day that I'm not with her.


After being back at work for 3 months, and having a few discussions with my boss, my request for a different work schedule was finally approved 2 weeks ago. I was elated. Now, I work from 8am - 4pm and the change has been good. I'm able to see Madelyn awake after work and we get special time together when I put her to bed. So Brian gets her in the morning and I get her a night. It's like we're ships passing in the night the way we come and go separately now, each with our own time with Madelyn. I can't complain, it's what I asked for and we're making it work. But I can't help but ask myself, what if we lived near work... ?

Last night, the commute home, on such a beautiful evening took 2 annoying hours. I felt like I watched the clock while we're crawling on the highway knowing that the time we were spending commuting was eating away at the time I could be having with Madelyn at home. 

I guess no matter how hard you try, creating a balance in life can be challenging. So, so hard. 

I will say I felt a little better after reading this article.  There are some things in the article that I don't agree with. However, I do agree that I don't really care how you parent or raise your child, but I think we should feel comfortable talking about the struggles, and pushing the envelope. After all, we can agree that what matters most in our lives, is our children!

 http://www.momsinmaine.com/2012/05/wake-up-moms-youre-fighting-the-wrong-fight/